I know this is going to be like the 5th textpost in a row with nothing solid in it but
Honestly if you see I reblogged an original post of yours and you’re just skeeved out then IM me. Dido if you just…. don’t enjoy what I tagged something as.

To clarify though this is for the OPs, not like – if I randomly reblogged a reblog from you. I mean if you don’t want me reblogging from you in general then I’ll just pick a random note on the post to reblog from instead.

Idk I’m just a little high strung because I saw a post that essentially went ‘if you tag a gen post with a ship then you’re trash’

Which I understand, you know – obviously Bill/ford is abusive as hell and no doubt highly triggering to people. But sometimes I want to post a piece as the ship name bc it has a sort of interaction I like for (unhealthy) ship dynamics. It’s just- I’m trying so hard to be careful with this blog. I don’t want to incidentally hurt anybody.

At the same time though it’s like… I just want to be able to like what I like. Without walking on eggshells.

look alright I like fluffy bill/ford AND ALSO that megaaaaaa manipulative Bill/ford stuff and I will individually every single one of you in a walgreen’s parking lot if you want to fight me over my problematic interests/ship

Current Bonuses: I don’t have to worry about pushing to fill up a queue on here right now because I’m such a new blog.

Current Downsides: If I post about how much I love paranoid ford or Ford having an attraction to bill that in the grunk years he absolutely loathes… will anybody see it

Me, gently sobbing as I restrain myself from reblogging a piece of Paranoid Ford fan art I’ve already reblogged: It’S jUsT SO gOoD

Note To Self: All Posts Prior To This Post Need To Be Rechecked For Tags

An underrated concept: Bill being aBSOLUTELY TERRIFYING and Ford might be scared, but ultimately he’s far too fascinated to actually recognize whatever the display in front of him is as ‘scary.’

sHOOT I FORGOT LEAVING THE WORD BILL//FORD IN A POST AUTOMATICALLY PUTS IT IN THE SEARCH RESULTS

I’m Lowkey highkey about billford interactions with paranoid ford where ford is honestly just outright paralyzed with terror
Like his muse was always awe-inspiring, but the only words he can think of to describe Bill now are powerful exponentially large

It’s like being in the middle of a hill under an avalanche that just started – it’s striking in a way nothing else could ever match up to and oh you’re scared
Boy are you scared because it’s going to swallow you W H O L E and the whole time your psyche can hardly sift through it all
You’re just stuck with this immense stricken feeling that’s more powerful than any dread

Okay but so you’d kind of think that in general Ford would be a bit less trusting after what happened with Stan. At least in regards to TRULY trusting someone again. In other words, at first glance it’s almost odd to think that Ford was really able to expend SO much trust in anyone.

Which there’s a couple possibilities for that. Bill isn’t strictly ‘anyone’ or even a person. Ford had already broken proverbial ice by having a trustworthy friend in Fiddleford so he’d gotten back to being able to trust better again. Ford was just so goshdang lonely that it wasn’t necessarily trust as much as becoming deeply dependent on having Bill, and thus distrust is swept under the rug in favor of company.

However, there’s kind of one that I kind of think may have been the factor for Ford’s ability to DEEPLY trust Bill like he did. Stan’s betrayal hinged on a couple things. One being the different desires, but the other (that was likely instilled by Filbrick) being that Stan was trying to ride off of Ford’s success.

So, I think maybe part of Ford’s trust issues were biased and stemmed more so only on people that could leech off of him. Which means that someone like Fidds who is on equal standing, is a low threat, because an EQUAL peer can still kick you down to push themselves up.
But then Bill?
Oh Bill is this great being that has far more knowledge than him. Bill seems leagues above him. So, naturally, there’s no threat, of course. At that too, Bill is reaching down to him and helping HIM climb to the stars!!

Bill screamed danger, but I think the reason Ford glossed over that wasn’t just because he was desperate for answers, but also because his distrust has been seated in the idea of someone using him for his knowledge/success that they themselves don’t possess.

Bill Cipher seemed safe in the regard where Stanford had suffered his (then) greatest betrayal.

A Trend

Me, picking up some online content: oh hey this is pretty good I’m really digging this!!
*creator is toxic or does something outright mean*
Me, quickly losing enjoyment of the content: …oh………
*slowly releases content back into the sea*